Wednesday, August 01, 2007

I hate roller coasters!!!!

I am not a fan of six flags, carnivals, or any such "theme" park. I am a chicken and I'm not afraid to admit it. Once Rocky talked me into getting on the bob sled (now called something else) at Six Flags because he thought that I was being ridiculous. When we got off he was laughing hysterically because he said that I sounded like I was being "gutted" alive.

With that being said I am not much for the roller coasters of life either. I like for everything to stay the same every day. I don't mind boring. However, I married my polar opposite. Rocky enjoys new and exciting and loves (even thrives) during change. I have prayed about my stagnant mental state because I don't believe that God can work on us if he doesn't shake things up sometimes. This move has taught me a lot about myself. Some days are really up and some really down. There seems to be no end to the "to do" list and I'm either laughing or crying.

I have decided that this is God's test to me. When you are a person of sameness you also sometimes tend to be a person of control. I always seem to think that I, me, myself can handle things. I feel like I have no control of a lot of things right now.

Just like any growing pain, I am not very comfortable, but I know that God is stretching me. So today my prayer is that I will turn lose and let God take the reigns. I think that there is a song "God is in control" and what about Proverbs 16:9 The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.


Anonymous said...

I have never commented on your blog, i am a good friend of Trey's, and i read his blog everyday and found your blog by reading his. I read yours often and enjoy it. The post that you have today touched my heart deeply, i am struggling right now with letting God take the reigns, i have some things right now that i am really worried about, and it makes me "MAD" that my Faith is not as storng as it should be. I tell my wife to have faith, but right now i seem to be lacking and i don't know why. Anyway just wanted to let you know that your comments touched me and thank you, sorry to be rambling, but thanks.

Matt H.

Neva said...

Oh Monica,
In real life theme parks are fun--rollercoasters are meant to thrill and excite, but in spiritual and emotional life they are indeed painful, frustrating, but as you said, a time of growth. And growth is truly what we pray for, isn't it?
I am praying for you--growing pains, while necessary are never pleasant.
love ya

Mommysmart said...


What an honor that my rambling touched your heart. I hope that you and I will learn our lessons together and I will include you in my prayers, too.


As always, you have such a great way putting life in perspective. You are right, I have prayed for growth.

Blessings to you both!


That stinks.... Matt H. writes on your blog, but I can't ever get him to make a comment on mine. Come on Matt... share the love. And quit calling my house so STINKING early.

As for you Monica, I'm glad you have Rocky or you'd be B-O-R-I-N-G. I'm so encouraging aren't I? You don't like rollercoasters and you don't like tornados. Come on.

BUT I do understand the faith thing that Matt is talking about. It's tough to trust and put or faith out on the line when it's "something big." I specificially remember when I had cancer thinking "where's my faith" when I was asking God to make me well instead of "whatever the Lord's will is."

Stachia said...

Monica I am with you, I don't like roller coasters either. There is a song God Is In Control and I listen to it often, sometimes over and over!!! I am reading a book called Facing Your Giants and it is really forcing me to look at several Giants in my life and it's not easy to work on them. So I'll pray for you if you'll pray for me and we will both make it through. Have a GREAT DAY!